The Dream

with a capital D - like in a woman of substance - emma and her plan with a capital P!!

*disclaimer* this post is going to be a rambling...rambling thoughts...jumping around from thought to thought...you have been forewarned! :)

ok...the dream...i've been asking God and asking God (just recently) about what am i supposed to do? what is His plan for me? what does He want me to do???? yesterday at church, worship was POWERFUL!! God is moving in our church, He's moving in my life! choosing not to lead a small group at this time was a good thing for me...for now...but later...i know i will be doing it!!

but i digress (see disclaimer above)

the dream...i can remember parts of it...and the feel of it...so here goes. i remember talking to someone saying that i had died...and i was in a sort of prison...maybe more like a (trying to figure out how to describe) an old place...stone stairs or dirt stairs...wood for gates...like just sticks...for the gates of the prison...i remember escaping...
later, the feel of the dream was that i was teaching...teaching the Word of God...not sure how or to whom...but i was...and it was sort of a missionary feel...a traveling feel to it...

for a few years now....since i haven't been going to church and even when i was still going but after the bomb of not being able to be on the worship team any longer...i was really feeling like joni didn't want to talk to me...didn't want to see me...didn't really care about me...(this is the prison)...when i talked to joni yesterday, she said, i'm so glad you're back in my life...i missed you. (release from the prison) i was shocked...truly was...it's like i had thought this whole time that she didn't care...and she did!! she missed me...it was really a release...it's like a weight has been lifted! i'm open, i'm free, i'm hungry and on fire for God!!

i've been interested in web design before...but then today i'm looking at the web site (www.hillside4.org) and i want to work it...i want to "grow" it...i want to add a place for prayer requests...i want God to use me to pray for those prayer requests...i want so many different things right now! i don't know where God is going to put me...but i know He has BIG plans for me! i feel it. so, i'm going to the tmcc website after this and i'm going to look into the web design...seriously! i want to be a greeter...i want to write the name tags for people!! i want to know someone's name before i look at their name tags! a gift that i have is remembering names! that makes someone feel special! i want to make people feel special when they come to church!!!

God, USE ME! i'm here...i'm Yours! i'm ready!