my last post...

i see said, going to the gym...well, guess what?? i haven't been yet - lmao - typical huh??? soon, very soon!
~stephanie

going to the gym

i'm going to the gym in a little bit...gotta get this weight off!! i finally realized i'm ready to do it for me...and not for anyone else! again, i'm back to not being able to breathe when i bend to tie my shoes...and huffing and puffing just walking up the stairs at the apartment~that's not good! i've been good with my food so far today...but it is only 10:17 am! lmao! we'll see how long it lasts!! :)

bored

ok...so how much time can i spend on the internet?? lmao ~ at work it didn't seem to be a problem...but now that i'm off...hmm
plus, my new favorite place, starbucks...is not as comfortable at home ~ but i can't take my computer home because david will FREAK OUT!!! not that it's any business of his...but i shouldn't have bought it...i shouldn't have spent the money...but...i did. so when david finds out he will be sooooooooo pissed! and again...it's not his business...but it's going to cause a major fight...and it won't be a one day fight ~ it will be a long time fight...sigh.

i keep thinking

starting to hurt - lol - no, but seriously...

about moving away...running away is more like it...but moving is something that i think about a lot...i mean...running away and leaving everyone behind and not telling anyone where i've gone...but guess what? i don't want to leave my church! wow - that is cool! i really love it at hillside. i love the worship, i love the people, i love the fellowship. louie's message today hit home and hit hard!!!! so my apology to dallas started it all off...hopefully this is the beginning of a new me...like louie said...it's not like an automatic change...not like a snap of the fingers...although it would be nice if it was huh???

so here's to me...being a better person...using my spiritual gifts in the way God wants...and not the opposite!

so here i am...

at kinko's on my new laptop...should i have purchased it??? no...but i did anyway huh? just like me to do the same dang stuff over and over and over...even knowing that i shouldn't. doesn't sound like a smart person to me...but hey...what do i know?? not much it seems. i will be posting more often though...ha ha ha.
~stephanie

ok...so...

that's how monica and i used to start our conversations whenever anything was wrong...if one of us said, 'ok, so...' then we knew there was a problem.

well, not sure how often this will be updated right now...i'm not at work...and i'm not sure when or if i'll be back...i really messed up at work...and i'm not sure if i'm going to have a job...also, my dr. took me out of work...so he thinks that i am not able to work...so a disability retirement is looking pretty good right now...we'll see.

Lord, just give me strength. I need peace, Lord. Thank You...in Your holy name, Amen.