tomorrow...i have to go to court

so back in january i got pulled over for running a red light...which i did NOT do!! yes, it was yellow when i went through...but i was so close to the intersection when it turned yellow, if i would have stopped, i would have ended up in the intersection. i didn't say anything to the officer when he pulled me over...i was too scared...guess i've seen too many episodes of COPS. lol!

the ticket is for $195.00!!! that's crazy!! anyway...for a month now i've been agonizing over what to say when i get to court. it's the police officer's word against mine right? and i'm sure the judge has probably heard every single excuse under the sun...but in this case it's TRUE!!! i hope i can articulate what i need to say and hope the judge believes me!!!

so pray for me...pray that i have the words to say and the judge has the ears to hear!! :) i'll tell ya all about it tomorrow!

we have sound!!

woo hoo! i took georgia and jeni's advice and talked to moses!! and now...we have sound!! woo hoo!! turn up your speakers! thanks georgia. thanks jeni. and thanks moses!!

hey...but tell me if it bugs you...cuz i don't want people not to visit my blog cuz they don't like the music!! :) i'll probably change the music up fairly often!

so is this really trusting God?

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ok...as many of you know...i have a grocery list of diagnoses of my mental issues (saying mental illness still makes me shudder). i see my psychologist and i see my psychiatrist and i take my medication every day like a good girl. and i pray. and pray, and pray, and pray!!! i pray for healing. i pray that God will heal me from these things. i also pray that if God chooses to heal me that He'll let me know...and by that i mean that He'll let me know when to stop taking my medication.

so now here comes the reason for the title, 'so is this really trusting God?' am i trusting God that He will heal me by taking this medication and going to the doctors? if i'm totally trusting God then shouldn't i stop all this stuff and just pray? just trust? i don't know...i know what i'm like without my medication...it's not good. i feel like i'm not completely trusting God while i'm taking the medications and listening to the doctors. i want to trust Him with EVERYTHING. i know God can heal me...i also know that He doesn't always do what we think He should! (go figure! us trying to tell God what to do - lol)

so? what do you think?

i need help from the geeks please!! :)

blogger geeks! i know how to put pictures and stuff on here...is there a way to put actual sound on here? like a song or a podcast? i have both that i want to add! if you know how...please enlighten me! tia! (thanks in advance ~ that's for anyone who isn't a geek with the online speak like me!) lol

spiritual gifts part 2

ok...so to anyone who has taken the spiritual gifts test...what did you think of your results? i was pretty shocked...out of a 12 score i got 11 in helps...helps? me? hmm...interesting...here's what the site says about helps...

Helps
Literal Meaning:
To take the place of someone.
Description:
The gift of Helps is the divine enablement to accomplish practical and necessary tasks which free-up, support and meet the needs of others.

hmm...does this sound like me? i know it sounds like what i WANT to do...but does it truly sound like me? hmm...need to do some serious praying here to figure out what God wants me to do!!

oh yeah...and out of a 12...the second one i got was 10 in giving!! :)

hmm...i didn't know

ok...so, after i turned on the moderating the comments thing...i guess i thought blogger would tell me when i had comments to moderate...but alas, it didn't!! ha ha - so here i am thinking, 'no one is commenting on my blog' and all the while i had 5 comments waiting to be published!! silly me!

spiritual gifts

spiritual gifts...what are they? do i have any? where can i find out? how does one find out what their spiritual gifts are??? ok, i know a few years ago (like 4 or 5) louie had given us a website for a spiritual gifts "test"...anyone remember what it is??? louie? oh louie? where art thou oh louie?
:)

a thorn in my side

well, i haven't been able to get onto blogger for a week or so...and while i was gone i discovered a thorn in my side...so it's now been taken care of and i will now moderate my comments. bummer dude

i am the moon

catchy title huh? lol

anyway...yesterday on the way to small group i was listening to 106.3. skip heitzig was on and doing a message titled "how to glow in the dark". it really caught my attention!! he was talking about how we are the moon...reflecting the light of the SON, S-O-N. i was like, wow. i started thinking about how sometimes i am covered with clouds and i'm not reflecting the SON at all. it made me sad...because i should be a shining light more often than i am. i know i'm not perfect and it won't be all the time...but it should be more than it is!! i'm trying, really trying to make the forecast clear so that everyone can see me reflecting the light of the SON!!! i'm growing every day and learning more and more! it's awesome! God is awesome!

Heavenly Father,
Thank You for being my protector and my provider. Thank You for always showing me what I need to be shown when I need to be shown! You are awesome!!
Thank You, Lord!!!

clear not cloudy ~ that's what i want to be!!!

ACK! what have i done? lol

i put myself out there for all to see!! ha ha - so now i'd better come up with something profound huh? :)

a really dumb thing i did

so last wednesday i decided to get my tongue pierced. ok, i had been thinking about it since i got my nose pierced...and that's been 5 1/2 months ago...but on wednesday i decided to do it! so i went and got it done...and paid quite a hefty sum...in my opinion anyway...and then the next day i took it out! it was awful!!!! it didn't hurt when it was actually pierced...but later...and the next morning...wow...talk about painful! i couldn't stand it!!! so, after less than 24 hours...it came out! here are some pictures...don't look if you're squeamish!! :)

before

during

after (nice expression huh? lol)
it hurt to stick out my tongue though!!

now ~ there is a small scar
type thing if you look close

weird...

ok...so a post i did the day before...was here when i published my blog...and then yesterday...it was GONE!! what's up with that?? at the same time i tried to comment on papa's blog...and he can't get them published! wah!! i guess i'm just having issues and wanted to whine! thanks for listening!! :)

pleasing to the eye food

ok...so i've always heard that you should make your food look nice - you know, like differnt colors on the plate and stuff. never done it...never thought it was a big deal. but after the salad i had last night...i can totally say that it IS a big deal!!! i made a salad with tomatoe and a yellow pepper...it was SO pretty!! the green of the spring mix salad and then the red of the tomato and the yellow of the pepper - it was great!!! and the orange of the ff catalina dressing! i'll be taking the time to do that more often! :)