so is this really trusting God?
? ? ?
ok...as many of you know...i have a grocery list of diagnoses of my mental issues (saying mental illness still makes me shudder). i see my psychologist and i see my psychiatrist and i take my medication every day like a good girl. and i pray. and pray, and pray, and pray!!! i pray for healing. i pray that God will heal me from these things. i also pray that if God chooses to heal me that He'll let me know...and by that i mean that He'll let me know when to stop taking my medication.
so now here comes the reason for the title, 'so is this really trusting God?' am i trusting God that He will heal me by taking this medication and going to the doctors? if i'm totally trusting God then shouldn't i stop all this stuff and just pray? just trust? i don't know...i know what i'm like without my medication...it's not good. i feel like i'm not completely trusting God while i'm taking the medications and listening to the doctors. i want to trust Him with EVERYTHING. i know God can heal me...i also know that He doesn't always do what we think He should! (go figure! us trying to tell God what to do - lol)
so? what do you think?
ok...as many of you know...i have a grocery list of diagnoses of my mental issues (saying mental illness still makes me shudder). i see my psychologist and i see my psychiatrist and i take my medication every day like a good girl. and i pray. and pray, and pray, and pray!!! i pray for healing. i pray that God will heal me from these things. i also pray that if God chooses to heal me that He'll let me know...and by that i mean that He'll let me know when to stop taking my medication.
so now here comes the reason for the title, 'so is this really trusting God?' am i trusting God that He will heal me by taking this medication and going to the doctors? if i'm totally trusting God then shouldn't i stop all this stuff and just pray? just trust? i don't know...i know what i'm like without my medication...it's not good. i feel like i'm not completely trusting God while i'm taking the medications and listening to the doctors. i want to trust Him with EVERYTHING. i know God can heal me...i also know that He doesn't always do what we think He should! (go figure! us trying to tell God what to do - lol)
so? what do you think?
posted by Stephanie @ 2/25/2006 08:34:00 AM
3 Comments:
At 10:17 AM,
georgia said…
I think God meets us where we are. Obviously, it would be great if we all had faith that was as strong as Jesus' and we could receive instant healing. But the Bible says that Jesus is the author and developer of our faith, and that we grow from faith to faith. So perhaps your faith isn't strong enough to just throw away your medications and "be healed" in an instant. That's okay. There are things that you can do to increase your faith such as meditating on God's promises. But in the meantime, it is perfectly acceptable to trust God to heal you gradually and with the assistance of doctors and medication. Your common sense is already telling you that you don't do very well off your medications. Common sense is a gift from God and it's good to pay attention to it.
At 10:34 PM,
Stephanie said…
georgia ~ thank you so much!! i appreciate your thoughts and comments! you help me so much :)
At 8:45 AM,
JayBird said…
stephanie- i really appreciate your heart on this. you ask valid questions. please know that your not alone in having mental & emotional challenges. you'd be surprised @ how many people struggle just like you do, but they don't talk about it. they put on appearances & many of them are @ church, your work, & anywhere you go. you, however, are being honest & seeking help. God loves to work w/a heart like that. i am proud of you.
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