leaning on God
that's what i'm trying to do. david is basically all moved out - he has the great house and yada yada yada - all what i said in the previous post. but guess what? it hurts. yeah, even though we aren't nice to each other, we've still been together for almost 4 years - well sort of - i mean the last year we have lived in the same house but different rooms and no relationship. in the back of my mind i always hoped we'd be able to work things out and that everything would end up hunky dory...but it hasn't - and it isn't. i'm trying hard to lean on God, when all i really want to do is give up and give in and try to be want david wants. even though it's not who i am and not who i want to be. sorry for whining...but i need to get this out! it's so hard to try to explain to people...i wanted the fairy tale...and didn't get it. i truly think sometimes that i'm meant to be alone...really. i know people tell me, 'no, we aren't meant to be alone'. but i think i am. really. ok, enough whining...again, pray for me that i get through this by turning to God. i'm praying LOTS!!
posted by Stephanie @ 3/16/2006 09:59:00 PM
1 Comments:
At 9:22 AM,
georgia said…
This is a new beginning for you, Stephanie. You're taking steps to go in a better direction for your life. In so doing, you are positioning yourself to receive all the things that you truly want. So don't settle for second best--hold out for God's best. He will give you the desires of your heart as you allow Him to prepare you for them. Remind yourself of that when you are tempted to compromise who you are for the sake of something that isn't going to really make you happy. Remember how the children of Israel were tempted to return to Egypt when they were in the wilderness, but God eventually brought them into the Promised Land where they had much more than they ever had in Egypt.
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